Sean had his kindergarten graduation ceremony today.
As Buddy & I sat and watched him walk up to receive his diploma I could not help remembering the miracle of his being here with us to celebrate such a momentous little occasion.
Words echoed in my mind as he stood on the stage in front of me and time stood still for a brief moment. Words like: "no fetal pole", "odd gestational sac", "eight weeks and still no heartbeat" and "Mrs Murphy, with beta pregnancy numbers this high we both know the baby should have a heartbeat by now"! And the most painful words that will forever ring in my mind and remind me of the miracle of it all - "termination Heidi"! "There is just no heartbeat"!
I sat in stunned, but proud silence today as I watched my baby boy walk across the stage, remembering that I actually was on the hospital schedule to receive the ordered D & C to terminate the pregnancy of my precious child. But, how could anyone have known? Anyone but God that is. He knew the whole time.
I watched him with tears in my eyes as he shook the principals hand today and took his little diploma. Remembering all the prayers of faith, the canceled D & C and the second opinion. Remembering the Dr. telling me there was a heartbeat after all and me refusing to believe it. It was all a whirlwind of emotion today as our son achieved another milestone in his precious life. And, it always will be....
I never take for granted the miracle of my son, Sean!
Oh, Heidi, that brought tears to my eyes. He is indeed a little miracle boy!! God blessed you in a special way and has special plans for that little man!!
ReplyDeleteI love it! God is patient and I'm so glad for your faith!
ReplyDeleteOkay, I'm crying here!!!! Are you supposed to cry when you read a blog?!?!
ReplyDeleteyes Julia... If you read some of the blogs I do, crying is certainly part of it at times!
ReplyDeleteBuddy jokes on me and thinks I have a disorder about reading everyone's "sad" blog....
How scary! I didn't realize y'all went through so much!!! Bless your hearts!
ReplyDeleteOh how i remember the heartbreaking news that there was no heartbeat, and then the "scared to believe its true" news that there was a heartbeat. And I remember my graduation day, walking across the stage receiving my diploma and rushing back to montgomery to the Hospital.
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